I must take charge.
I’m done drifting wherever it is convenient.
I know I’m not getting any younger.
I must do something about it.
My question on who am I?
I am I and I alone and cannot be anyone else.
I need things and I want things for I and no one else can only provide myself.
I’m done just taking life like a joke thinking all the while that everything is ok even though it is not.
I must do something about it.
I must not dwell in the past. Whatever it is that my dad was not able to provide should not be the reason of my mistakes.
I should stand by my actions no matter what the consequence.
God has done things that every man can. He asks us to be more like him and it is possible.
I need to set my mind to something and just do it.
Sooner or late I’ll need to be responsible enough to my love ones.
I need to fix my life.
I need to make a stand.
I need to stop myself from doing the usual things.
I need variety, control and self-realization that in life only I can make it more bearable.
I must stop blaming others, stop complaining, and start doing.
I am thankful that I have a skill like this.
Words and thoughts, which are rare in some, are natural to me.
I must harness it and use it to my full advantage.
I need to act now.
I need to plan where to begin and begin as soon as the plan is set.
I will find my answers eventually but first I must do something about myself and find a path where I can exploit my talents and use it to my advantage.
I need to do it now.Not soon but now.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Why should we hire you?
You should hire me because of 3 things.
I am not the smartest man you’ll meet.
I am lazy
I talk a lot.
You should hire me because I am not the smartest man in the world. I don’t know much but what I do know I know very well. I may not know the answer to some of the world’s questions but I will never stop asking and searching until I get the answers to it. Now if there would be another question that arise you can bet that I will also find that answer for you or at least try to and/or make a theory of my own and present it to you for your approval.
You should also hire me because I am lazy. Lazy meaning that if there’s a much quicker and efficient way of doing things then I will do it if there is none then I will try and look for one and seek for my manager’s approval so I can use it and try to innovate the already well made system thus making it much more efficient and easy to use.
You should also hire me because I talk a lot. I may rant sometimes but those rants if you take some time to listen may fascinate you. I talk a lot in a sense that when my customer is asking for something I never stop trying to find that answer while keeping them entertained and in a quite cheerful mood without them realizing that they are waiting for their inquiries response. I treat my customers like equals, with respect and appreciation of their time. I never talk down to anyone if I may have then it must be that the flooring of what were standing on is not leveled or I’m simply just too tall or him too little.
You should also hire me because I am an optimist. I see the best in people and try to act on their good nature and try to be as well mannered and nice to other around me. I may not look like it but I’m a pretty decent guy save for 3 things, talker and me being not smart, and lazy.
I am not the smartest man you’ll meet.
I am lazy
I talk a lot.
You should hire me because I am not the smartest man in the world. I don’t know much but what I do know I know very well. I may not know the answer to some of the world’s questions but I will never stop asking and searching until I get the answers to it. Now if there would be another question that arise you can bet that I will also find that answer for you or at least try to and/or make a theory of my own and present it to you for your approval.
You should also hire me because I am lazy. Lazy meaning that if there’s a much quicker and efficient way of doing things then I will do it if there is none then I will try and look for one and seek for my manager’s approval so I can use it and try to innovate the already well made system thus making it much more efficient and easy to use.
You should also hire me because I talk a lot. I may rant sometimes but those rants if you take some time to listen may fascinate you. I talk a lot in a sense that when my customer is asking for something I never stop trying to find that answer while keeping them entertained and in a quite cheerful mood without them realizing that they are waiting for their inquiries response. I treat my customers like equals, with respect and appreciation of their time. I never talk down to anyone if I may have then it must be that the flooring of what were standing on is not leveled or I’m simply just too tall or him too little.
You should also hire me because I am an optimist. I see the best in people and try to act on their good nature and try to be as well mannered and nice to other around me. I may not look like it but I’m a pretty decent guy save for 3 things, talker and me being not smart, and lazy.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Quiet thy mind
Who am I?
What am I made of?
What am I destined for?
I’ve read these questions on a book lent to me by a friend. To which the answers still eludes me amidst countless nights of dwelling into the deep abyss of thoughts.
Who am I?
It would be safe to say that I am what my personal information provides. I can give my name, age, location and work. But all this are superficial or if not would hardly penetrate the shell of that mystery. A mystery cloaked by my endless questions on which I really am and by the indecisions I throw at the topic.
What am I made of?
Do I have the capacity to love, share and protect all those around me? To all of those that is important to me? My defining moment in life can have repercussions that will echo in the future. Like a stone thrown in the water ripples for sure will appear affecting all that it is connected to.
What am I destined for?
I believe that there is someone greater than all of us that have already weave the threads that we are about to take. Everything is pre-destined to be something. Like water that no matter what form it takes it will always be in it’s original state sooner or later. Although sometimes plans do not turn out the way it should be and that’s the beauty of it. We can be so certain of today and then our whole world is rocked by uncertainty the next. It is said that Gods (Greek myth) envy mortals because of that uncertainty and the doom that is death that we are all destined for makes everything sweeter.
The thrill.
As much as I’d like to get my questions now, rather than going thru my whole life looking for it, I’d rather not. The suspense of the unknown is so fascinating that regardless of a certain fact that we know that some things will not turn out to be the way it should we still head on and charge it with all we have.
Living as if it’s your last.
Sometimes I feel like my body is just a shell in order for me to exist. Existing is not my dream, LIVING is. Doing things halfway is not doing them at all. I want to live, not just to be alive, breathing and existing but to actually LIVE! I want to smell the ocean breeze as it hits my face. To taste the salt that comes with it. To watch the sunsets and sunrises and share it with the one I love.
Now Showing.
Our life is now showing, it’s not coming soon; it’s not for next attraction. It is now. We must grab it by the horns and wrestle it with all our might. We must not trouble ourselves with petty things, with material things that we so depend on to be happy and complete. We need to rely in that hope that everything will be ok because it is what we want for ourselves. It can be anything we dream to be. Anything we would want to have although sometimes we need to be a realist but then again there’s no harm in dreaming.
Love
Love? Why does this word hold so much meaning for so short of a word. It moves mountains and separates oceans just so it can be. It makes things a lot of fun and a lot difficult to understand. Everyone wants to feel that passion and the pain of which makes the whole experience worthwhile. We want to be miserably, deeply and madly in-love. We want to torture ourselves to the point that all we feel is that lingering want to be loved. I think sometimes being miserable gives us perspectives to what or where we want to direct our lives. We all want to star in our very own movie. May it be drama, comedy, suspense, horror or a love story we all want to direct it, write it and act it out. It is said that the whole world is a stage and the rest of the world is your audience and you are the writer, director and the actor that is to play it out. I believe this although sometimes we need to make adjustments to our scripts. Adjustments, that makes the whole story really interesting and the audience wanting for more. We fabricate stories in our heads to what this day would turn out to be hoping that today we will be swept of our feet by that one instance where the whole world will stop and it will be just you in the picture with your own slow motion effect as you get to the highlights.
Coffee
I love coffee. I love the woody, husky, and strong aroma of a fresh brew. The orchestra of the bitter sweet taste it leaves on my mouth after sipping it is incomparable to anything I’ve tasted. The kick it provides me. It is safe to say that I’m a caffeine addict. Life and love is like a strong brew. Hot, bitter and sweet. Some may like it some may not. It can burn you if you’re not careful but it can also give you that kick to continue on. And just like any good brew, it is best enjoyed with the ones you love while enjoying the simple yet complex nature of life.
What am I made of?
What am I destined for?
I’ve read these questions on a book lent to me by a friend. To which the answers still eludes me amidst countless nights of dwelling into the deep abyss of thoughts.
Who am I?
It would be safe to say that I am what my personal information provides. I can give my name, age, location and work. But all this are superficial or if not would hardly penetrate the shell of that mystery. A mystery cloaked by my endless questions on which I really am and by the indecisions I throw at the topic.
What am I made of?
Do I have the capacity to love, share and protect all those around me? To all of those that is important to me? My defining moment in life can have repercussions that will echo in the future. Like a stone thrown in the water ripples for sure will appear affecting all that it is connected to.
What am I destined for?
I believe that there is someone greater than all of us that have already weave the threads that we are about to take. Everything is pre-destined to be something. Like water that no matter what form it takes it will always be in it’s original state sooner or later. Although sometimes plans do not turn out the way it should be and that’s the beauty of it. We can be so certain of today and then our whole world is rocked by uncertainty the next. It is said that Gods (Greek myth) envy mortals because of that uncertainty and the doom that is death that we are all destined for makes everything sweeter.
The thrill.
As much as I’d like to get my questions now, rather than going thru my whole life looking for it, I’d rather not. The suspense of the unknown is so fascinating that regardless of a certain fact that we know that some things will not turn out to be the way it should we still head on and charge it with all we have.
Living as if it’s your last.
Sometimes I feel like my body is just a shell in order for me to exist. Existing is not my dream, LIVING is. Doing things halfway is not doing them at all. I want to live, not just to be alive, breathing and existing but to actually LIVE! I want to smell the ocean breeze as it hits my face. To taste the salt that comes with it. To watch the sunsets and sunrises and share it with the one I love.
Now Showing.
Our life is now showing, it’s not coming soon; it’s not for next attraction. It is now. We must grab it by the horns and wrestle it with all our might. We must not trouble ourselves with petty things, with material things that we so depend on to be happy and complete. We need to rely in that hope that everything will be ok because it is what we want for ourselves. It can be anything we dream to be. Anything we would want to have although sometimes we need to be a realist but then again there’s no harm in dreaming.
Love
Love? Why does this word hold so much meaning for so short of a word. It moves mountains and separates oceans just so it can be. It makes things a lot of fun and a lot difficult to understand. Everyone wants to feel that passion and the pain of which makes the whole experience worthwhile. We want to be miserably, deeply and madly in-love. We want to torture ourselves to the point that all we feel is that lingering want to be loved. I think sometimes being miserable gives us perspectives to what or where we want to direct our lives. We all want to star in our very own movie. May it be drama, comedy, suspense, horror or a love story we all want to direct it, write it and act it out. It is said that the whole world is a stage and the rest of the world is your audience and you are the writer, director and the actor that is to play it out. I believe this although sometimes we need to make adjustments to our scripts. Adjustments, that makes the whole story really interesting and the audience wanting for more. We fabricate stories in our heads to what this day would turn out to be hoping that today we will be swept of our feet by that one instance where the whole world will stop and it will be just you in the picture with your own slow motion effect as you get to the highlights.
Coffee
I love coffee. I love the woody, husky, and strong aroma of a fresh brew. The orchestra of the bitter sweet taste it leaves on my mouth after sipping it is incomparable to anything I’ve tasted. The kick it provides me. It is safe to say that I’m a caffeine addict. Life and love is like a strong brew. Hot, bitter and sweet. Some may like it some may not. It can burn you if you’re not careful but it can also give you that kick to continue on. And just like any good brew, it is best enjoyed with the ones you love while enjoying the simple yet complex nature of life.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Taus-pusong pasasalamat
As most of you guys know tomorrow will be my last day as your teammate here in Shell Fleet card Customer Facing (did I get it right). I will be transferring to Billings as to what I will be assigned there to do I am still not sure. I may have come to be too strong but this is just how the way I am and I don't mean to be one. I am grateful for the tips and information that you parted with me this past few months. I enjoyed my stay here even though it raised a few eyebrows and pouted some lips out of annoyance and for it I apologize.
Sir Rein, I am thankful from day 1 that you allowed me to be a part of your team and as for the disappointments that I gave you, I am truly sorry. I stood by my actions and placed my self into your better judgment and luckily, I was given another chance and for this I am truly thankful for.
I’d like to give my thanks to certain individuals that have been really patient with my endless nagging and blunt with their comments about me. You know who you are. I appreciate it truly.
Again, Thank you so much for having me.
Sir Rein, I am thankful from day 1 that you allowed me to be a part of your team and as for the disappointments that I gave you, I am truly sorry. I stood by my actions and placed my self into your better judgment and luckily, I was given another chance and for this I am truly thankful for.
I’d like to give my thanks to certain individuals that have been really patient with my endless nagging and blunt with their comments about me. You know who you are. I appreciate it truly.
Again, Thank you so much for having me.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
the amiable cabbie
After picking up my and eating at a nearby Chinese restaurant we were able to get a cab last night with a driver so nice you’d actually feel proud of him and feel guilty that you can’t tip him enough. It’s so rare to find cab drivers like this who is more than just after the money but actually wanted to do his job well. He’s noble and really polite for a cab driver, which is really rare. Since it was raining really hard last night the traffic was chaotic. But not a word of complain was heard from him. He was even joking with me and my girl and actually being so modest that he says that he is not that nice when it comes to ferrying people to where they want to go. It just so happens that he is also from the south and knows how hard it is to get a cab to drive you there. A tip for him is appropriate. I also noticed that his meter isn’t the one with a “batingting” that skyrockets every time he revs up his vehicle considering that it was a new model. The driving was superb and really smooth and the driver himself is polite and well mannered. Another tip for him seems to be the right thing to do. When we arrived at our destination we handed him the fare plus the tip.
What really surprises me when we boarded his cab was, he told us that he’d just set the meter later because he needs to gas up at a nearby gasoline station. When I told him it’s ok he declined and said sometimes it takes a long time for the attendants to load him up. Now talk about being fair huh.
David Mendoza all drivers should be like you. Cheers to you mate and God speed!
Monday, May 25, 2009
seeking for my calling
I've been asked by lot of people what exactly what I would like to do with my life, mostly by my girlfriend of 4 years, to which I reply I've yet to decide. I've given it a lot of thought. My close friend tells me to just return to my previous course which is nursing. With that being said I've consider it many times over yet I can't find the guts to make a firm stand whether I'll take it up or not. After I quit nursing school I thought of becoming a writer. However, I realized that you don't really need a degree to write what's on your mind and earn yourself some followers that will take their time to read what you want to say.
At least that's what I thought.
I tried my hands on nihonggo for a caregiver job in Japan. That too didn't turn out to be productive. I just ended up wasting time and money.
I tried getting a job and luckily enough I landed one at a call center. One good thing about call centers, they pay well and you have tons of benefits that come along with it. Bad thing about it is you gotta do the same old thing day by effing day.
That didn't worked out as well.
I can't seem to make up my mind to what I really would like to be doing. I love to write and yet there are times that it bores me to even think of a good topic to write about. Laziness is my greatest illness that i can't seem to get over. I tried overcoming it and try I did but didn't quite make it. If it wasn't for my girl, only God knows what I'm doing. For all I know I may already be dead.
Enough of that.
I speak ok, write ok and do my job ok. But at the end of the day I still find myself asking what I would rather be doing. At the end of the day I feel like what I'm doing is less than par to what i really should be doing.
For starters, I'd like to get a degree. Question is what kind of degree? To this question I've yet to find my answer. I'd like to at least provide for my family and have them be proud of me. But I guess that's too much to ask given I find the simplest of tasks to be taxing. I could rant all day and use heavy words that will somehow make me look like I know what I'm writing about but that won't make much of a difference. I'd still go home thinking what is it that I would rather be doing instead of ranting.
It would have been better if I could choose from 2 options but I don't even have any options to choose from from the beginning. Or maybe I have but it still hasn’t come to me yet. Is it my ego that gets in the way? Is it that lack of motivation from the person I seek it from the most that is lacking? Or is it just me hindering myself to go and get what I want, given that I already know what that is. I'm so confused. Tired. Getting of sick of myself for not being able to decide what I really want. I'm not getting any younger. Opportunities are quickly depleting. I need to get my ass into gear if I like to do something with my life; I need to make up my mind.
Dear God, please help me find my calling. Amen.
Cheers!
At least that's what I thought.
I tried my hands on nihonggo for a caregiver job in Japan. That too didn't turn out to be productive. I just ended up wasting time and money.
I tried getting a job and luckily enough I landed one at a call center. One good thing about call centers, they pay well and you have tons of benefits that come along with it. Bad thing about it is you gotta do the same old thing day by effing day.
That didn't worked out as well.
I can't seem to make up my mind to what I really would like to be doing. I love to write and yet there are times that it bores me to even think of a good topic to write about. Laziness is my greatest illness that i can't seem to get over. I tried overcoming it and try I did but didn't quite make it. If it wasn't for my girl, only God knows what I'm doing. For all I know I may already be dead.
Enough of that.
I speak ok, write ok and do my job ok. But at the end of the day I still find myself asking what I would rather be doing. At the end of the day I feel like what I'm doing is less than par to what i really should be doing.
For starters, I'd like to get a degree. Question is what kind of degree? To this question I've yet to find my answer. I'd like to at least provide for my family and have them be proud of me. But I guess that's too much to ask given I find the simplest of tasks to be taxing. I could rant all day and use heavy words that will somehow make me look like I know what I'm writing about but that won't make much of a difference. I'd still go home thinking what is it that I would rather be doing instead of ranting.
It would have been better if I could choose from 2 options but I don't even have any options to choose from from the beginning. Or maybe I have but it still hasn’t come to me yet. Is it my ego that gets in the way? Is it that lack of motivation from the person I seek it from the most that is lacking? Or is it just me hindering myself to go and get what I want, given that I already know what that is. I'm so confused. Tired. Getting of sick of myself for not being able to decide what I really want. I'm not getting any younger. Opportunities are quickly depleting. I need to get my ass into gear if I like to do something with my life; I need to make up my mind.
Dear God, please help me find my calling. Amen.
Cheers!
scandal... Again!
Everyone loves a scandal. We love it so much that this news headlines almost all the newspapers and floods the chatrooms and television. A scandal I thought being more important than the crawling economy of our country, the continuous suffering of our very own people and oportunistic politicians who basks in the attention being given by the masses. There are more pressing issues but I guess those have to wait.
Eventually, it will all boil down to this. If Hayden is proven to have a psychological disorder then he will not go to prison. Instead, his lawyer may find a way to sway the court to just detain his client in a hospital until he is treated of his psychological issues.
Atleast, that's what I would do if he is my client and if I were a lawyer. As for the illicit video, how sure are we that Katrina doesn't know she is being taped? If the sex video was taken at about the same time after the dance video then there is a great chance that she knows about the "hidden" cam. Not only that, she already knows that Hayden has a certain liking of taping it so why have she not made sure that she is not going to star on one of his "collections". I pity Maricar and the Brazilian model that was caught in all these but then again given the nature of the film it's also their fault for not being careful in the 1st place.
Hayden is indeed a sexual pervert who gets his kick off in these kinds of things. Although given the chance that his partners gave their consent to be filmed while they do the nasty and he having no intention of showing the video to anyone else except for their own viewing then it would just all be a fetish that they need to fulfill. But it just isn't so or maybe is it? We’ll never know for sure unless all his partners speak and tell the truth if they gave their consent or not. As per Hayden’s part, it's either he got careless and pissed the wrong people or simply is just suffering from a sexual/psychological disorder. (How convenient)
Eventually, it will all boil down to this. If Hayden is proven to have a psychological disorder then he will not go to prison. Instead, his lawyer may find a way to sway the court to just detain his client in a hospital until he is treated of his psychological issues.
Atleast, that's what I would do if he is my client and if I were a lawyer. As for the illicit video, how sure are we that Katrina doesn't know she is being taped? If the sex video was taken at about the same time after the dance video then there is a great chance that she knows about the "hidden" cam. Not only that, she already knows that Hayden has a certain liking of taping it so why have she not made sure that she is not going to star on one of his "collections". I pity Maricar and the Brazilian model that was caught in all these but then again given the nature of the film it's also their fault for not being careful in the 1st place.
Hayden is indeed a sexual pervert who gets his kick off in these kinds of things. Although given the chance that his partners gave their consent to be filmed while they do the nasty and he having no intention of showing the video to anyone else except for their own viewing then it would just all be a fetish that they need to fulfill. But it just isn't so or maybe is it? We’ll never know for sure unless all his partners speak and tell the truth if they gave their consent or not. As per Hayden’s part, it's either he got careless and pissed the wrong people or simply is just suffering from a sexual/psychological disorder. (How convenient)
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