I'm bored to my wits here. It's not that there's really nothing much to do but rather I'd like to go somewhere I've never been. I just wanna drive and head to nowhere. Load up on gas and just drive up north or down south until I can't drive no more. I'm still looking for that escape of escapes that will let me think about what i really want in life and what really matters. Everyday seems to be a blur. A repetitive loop that doesn't seem to be leading to someting interesting.
I'd though a lot of writing about me and my friends or me and my lvoe lie or something that is more fictional than my life itself. But the white bull steadily locks it's gaze on me and sucks all my thoughts away. I don't know where to begin....
Just took a call.
Now where was I? Right, where to begin. I'm not really sure... I'm not really sure for the most part of my life. Decisions that have come to pass were not as smart as they should be or as my dad expects it to be. I've been working for almost 2 years and still haven't got much to show for. I get bored easily. It's actually a surprise to me that I managed to be in a relationship that will be almost 4 years with the same girl. Mainly because she's doing her part more than I was doing mine.
Just paused for a while to get another call. Done.
My friends once asked me If I plan on working for somebody else for the rest of my life. I told him "no". partly true and partly a lie.
True, because I don't want to take orders for the rest of my life.
Lie, because I can't seem to know what my next move will be.
It's frustrating knowing that I can ask for my dad's advice but I can't. I just can't find the strength to bring myself and ask him for help. For all I know he'll just tell me to go back to school and finish nursing. Part of myself wants to but about 3/4 of me doesn't want to.
Just took another call. Done.
I've been in this industry for the longest time. Some of my friends tell me that I was made for this job but I believe otherwise. *Sigh*
How about I just go into exile and really think of what I really want to do with my life? But then again, there's really no assurance that I'd get that piece of mind on what to do or what will my next step be.
Got a brief scare there. QA showed up from nowhere and advised me about some pointers I should always remember. Now I remember she's coaching my seatmate here and the mock calls reminded me of how dumb I was before I all got the hang of it. Difference is, He's better than i was during my initial calls. Anyhow, I'm already getting tired of rambling. Hopefully I'd get a thought of what to do next during my silence.
Cheers!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Training day
Nothing much to do here in the office for the past 2 weeks. As for today we're on training for the new systems that are going to be implemented in our LOB (line of busines). I worked for about an hour and a half then off to training until 4pm.
Will be picking up Salve later for dinner and still haven't had any decent amount of sleep this whole week.
For some reason I feel like I'll get bored when I sleep so I stay awake until the wee hours of the evening and then wake up at around 5:30 to go to work.
Got nothing much to say about anything aside from that the boy's night out has been pretty frequent because henry will be leaving the country soon. Sad excuse. Vigan trip is still not confirm.
Will be taking care of the requirements for the clearance from my previous employer to finally get my back pay. Hopefully it would be a considerable amount so I can buy that long pending phone I've been dreaming about.
I still got work tomorrow, PM shift, but nonetheless I think I'll be able to take a much deserve rest tonight and on Sunday.
Cheers.
Will be picking up Salve later for dinner and still haven't had any decent amount of sleep this whole week.
For some reason I feel like I'll get bored when I sleep so I stay awake until the wee hours of the evening and then wake up at around 5:30 to go to work.
Got nothing much to say about anything aside from that the boy's night out has been pretty frequent because henry will be leaving the country soon. Sad excuse. Vigan trip is still not confirm.
Will be taking care of the requirements for the clearance from my previous employer to finally get my back pay. Hopefully it would be a considerable amount so I can buy that long pending phone I've been dreaming about.
I still got work tomorrow, PM shift, but nonetheless I think I'll be able to take a much deserve rest tonight and on Sunday.
Cheers.
Friday, April 3, 2009
TRUE or FALSE
Write YOUR 1st NAME if the statement is true. If it's false, UNDERLINE the word that makes it false.
Above was the instructions on my test yesterday. On instincts it will tell you to just write your name but this is a trick statement if you look closely. So instead of writing my name I instead wrote "YOUR 1st Name" if the statement was true. They told me I was wrong to have written what I have wrote, but this is how I understand it. I won't go to the details about this one because it's a really tiring and "nosebleed" explanation. To cut to the chase, the QA and me were able to chat about this and what seemed to be a good battle of wits turned out to be a tension filled, supervisor involved fiesta. I don't know if it was her way of retaining her credibility or making it clear that I'm just an agent, but with she coming over here yesterday with guns blazing was an act of a sore loser. When we were in IM she told me that it was good that i was fighting for what I believed was right and then out of nowhere she came over and told me that her supervisor told her that I am indeed wrong, when I already and clearly told her that I'll just leave it to her/their better judgement. She told me that it was confidential but is it confidential to have your QA come over to you desk while you were working with all of your colleagues and then bombard you with all these statements of which is clearly a desperate move to force you to understand their point( she did dit it sublte but nonetheless told one of the other tenure what happened, so much for confidentiality huh). Not only that. This morning when I came in. The QA was asking one of the tenures if she was the one feeding me the lines I should say during IM(instant message). I mean WTF right! Am I not capable of saying all those and actually knowing what they mean? That is added insult to injury. Althought she didn't say it straight she was implying that I couldn't have came up with all those rebottles on my own. Geez.
Anyway, I decided to just let it slide when she already came over but she won't have none of it. She still kept on telling me that I am now being inconcistent and that I should still fight for what I think is right. Well I would if she wasn't getting hysterical about it and if I know for a fact that her colleagues won't be biased just because she is the tenure.
I decided last night to just stop caring about them and do what I do. If I have questions I'll go directly to the TL or the Big Boss for answers. Atleast they are which I believe are more professional than their subordinates. I only wish that the they are very and as in very professionaly and un-biased.
Just venting out. until my next post...
Cheers!
Above was the instructions on my test yesterday. On instincts it will tell you to just write your name but this is a trick statement if you look closely. So instead of writing my name I instead wrote "YOUR 1st Name" if the statement was true. They told me I was wrong to have written what I have wrote, but this is how I understand it. I won't go to the details about this one because it's a really tiring and "nosebleed" explanation. To cut to the chase, the QA and me were able to chat about this and what seemed to be a good battle of wits turned out to be a tension filled, supervisor involved fiesta. I don't know if it was her way of retaining her credibility or making it clear that I'm just an agent, but with she coming over here yesterday with guns blazing was an act of a sore loser. When we were in IM she told me that it was good that i was fighting for what I believed was right and then out of nowhere she came over and told me that her supervisor told her that I am indeed wrong, when I already and clearly told her that I'll just leave it to her/their better judgement. She told me that it was confidential but is it confidential to have your QA come over to you desk while you were working with all of your colleagues and then bombard you with all these statements of which is clearly a desperate move to force you to understand their point( she did dit it sublte but nonetheless told one of the other tenure what happened, so much for confidentiality huh). Not only that. This morning when I came in. The QA was asking one of the tenures if she was the one feeding me the lines I should say during IM(instant message). I mean WTF right! Am I not capable of saying all those and actually knowing what they mean? That is added insult to injury. Althought she didn't say it straight she was implying that I couldn't have came up with all those rebottles on my own. Geez.
Anyway, I decided to just let it slide when she already came over but she won't have none of it. She still kept on telling me that I am now being inconcistent and that I should still fight for what I think is right. Well I would if she wasn't getting hysterical about it and if I know for a fact that her colleagues won't be biased just because she is the tenure.
I decided last night to just stop caring about them and do what I do. If I have questions I'll go directly to the TL or the Big Boss for answers. Atleast they are which I believe are more professional than their subordinates. I only wish that the they are very and as in very professionaly and un-biased.
Just venting out. until my next post...
Cheers!
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