L-O-V-E

Have you ever fallen in love???? have you had sleepless nights because your wondering what she's doing? have you ever done something so stupid for her but end up never regretting it? have you ever cared for someone else so much but cannot show her what you trully feel because you know in yourself that you dont know how and are afraid of making a fool of yourself? if you answer yes to all the questions above then you, buddy, have fallen in love without you realizing it, or maybe you did but are to proud of admitting it or then again maybe your faking it(whatever that means) when i say fallen in love i mean the real thing, then again is there a way of telling if its the real thing?, not the one where you just want her because of her great ass or smile or boobs but then again aint all this the first thing we get to notice whenever we see the "one". i mean let's keep it real, picture this, your going thru a market full of geriatric people with one thing in mind ,and that's getting a bargain, when out of nowhere this heavenly creature ,you swear is an angel, is exposed to you by a miraculous gap between all the people in that market and in a flash she vanishes as quickly as she appeared. you're left awe struck with a glint of disbelief and a small drool on the corner of your mouth and a big urge to see her again and possibly talk to her in whatever language her kind uses that your puny brain cannot understand. with that being said you try to catch a glimpse of her again only to find that the one you saw is probably an imagination or a silhouette of your morning glory in the corner of your eye( pretty morning glory huh?) or is she? the following week came up and then out of nowhere there she is again this time speaking to your gramps about the wares her company's selling. you hear her voice ever so soft but powerful, you caught a scent of her hair which you swear is the most beautiful smell you've ever smelled in you entire pathetic life and when finally you get to see her again but this time so close that you thought your dreaming, you brushed your eye just to be sure and true enough she is indeed in front of you with your gramps being able to have done all the talking that is needed for the moment. as your ever makulit na lolo do he tried to introduce you to her but not in a manner you'd be spared with the embarrasment that comes along with it. as she say's hi you bite your tongue in the first sign of decency and shy away playing like your the cool cat. as you walked further away from her you cant help but feel sorry for your ass and for you stupid pride that got in the way. The next morning as you woke up you wish you havent done that or maybe done something else for her to get a positive image of you but you cannot because it has already been done and you cant do anything to return to that moment so instead you vowed to speak to her when an opportunity arise. So came the day of the market, again a lot of people is there with you being a tiny speck of sleepy head among the chaos around. if only they know what kind of chaos is running thru your mind as you get closer and closer to the store in which you saw her. As you got to the store you see her looking way pretty than the last time so in your head you try to look for that particular line that would leave a strong mark of you in her mind and maybe remember your name after having said that. and then she said "hi" in which all you had planned went straight out of the window(if there is one) and your left with nothing but to ignore her once more(damn torpe) as you walked away for the second time you find yourself going around in circles in the market thinking of what's the next step of being such a wuss. You walked and you walked but your not going anywhere so you decided to go home instead in which you did in a matter of minutes. as you got home you lie on the bed and watch tv. to your surprise a romantic love story is on, its like a sign from heaven that you too should make a story of your own but how? as you watched through you learned of ideas on how to look good infront of her. so there you are switching of the tv and on your way to the market once more with her on your mind and the movie which you have seen earlier wishing you got the balls to do the man thing and strike up a conversation that would leave her remembering you. You got to the market looking like a man with a purpose( a purpose not to look like shit infron of her or make a fool of yourself), as you saw her from across the market( in which this time would have less people) you remembered the movie you just saw and formulate an idea of pure lame and such cliche line... as you got to her store she look at you and again said "hi" in the most pleasant voice you have ever heard, its like a salvation given by the heavens to rescue your poor sorry ass. Having formed you resolve you stood firm and took a deep breath and ,hope to the Go'd above that all the things you plan to say wont leave you hanging, opened your mouth to say it... (to be concluded)

written on March 12, 2007